it is almost snowing.

it's that feeling.

it's what makes me push the gas pedal down harder, it's what makes me turn the music up and roll the windows down. it's that feeling of rushing back into myself; reclaiming things that I have lost.

it's like jump-starting my heart. it's like waking up for the first time, it's like realizing that this is the very first minute that I am really, truly, alive. all over again. it's like that moment when my nose hits his collarbone and I realize that. he's not mine, and he may never be. it's like catching his eye when I know I shouldn't.

it's that feeling that awakens something inside of me that lives and breathes and fights for you.

it's what drives me back to you when I am scared to go. it's what sends me far and wide and to places where it's almost snowing.

it's like jump-starting a heart that was once afraid to love.